basically this blog entry should be titled:
THE MOST CONTROVERSIAL AND MOST LIKELY TO STIR UP SHIT ENTRY EVERRR!!!!!! ...here it goes:

first... to my little male friends. this is to 3 of you... u know who u are. heres the point-- I'M SINGLE! so do NOT think you have ANY right to ask me who i am with, where i have been, what i am doing, am i with any guys, or ANY similar questions. do not get mad if you find out i was hangin out, spendin time with, or talking to any other guy.  again, I AM SINGLE and am free to do what i want. if i wanted someone to nag at me all the time and interrogate me, i know where to find a boyfriend. i know how everyone feels and i know how available you all are... so u've done ur part. now PLEASE give me some space.

second... basically i'm DONE tryin to have "friends." i have associates. people i hang out with. people i have fun with. thats about it. i have NO ONE in this world that i can talk to and tell them things without them getting repeated. and PLEASE dont IM me after u read this and say "you can talk to me..." because i cant. been there, dont that... doesnt work. apparently its just more fun to stir up shit rather than be a friend and a confidant. i should also add in that i am not mad at anyone. there are people that are readng this and they KNOW i'm talking directly to them, but no worries... i am not angry nor will things be different with us.

third... i have some issues to address. as you know... several people have been in touch with my parents, which did absolutly NOTHING but make my mom worry even MORE than she needs to because i mean really, doesnt she have enough stress. so... we have some issues to discuss. first... "i have a drinkin problem." ok. i occasionally drink on the weekends (i'd say at least 50-75% of them) and most thursdays before goin to bar. thats all a part of the college experience. there has never been a time i drank WITHOUT megan jackson since she is the one who supplies all my alcohol. but then again, i forgot. megan has an "excuse." she "has a job" and i dont. so that makes it alllll ok. lemme tell u what... iiiiiii am still in school. iiiiiii told all my teachers the TRUTH about why i missed class. iiiiiii got help for my problems. iiiiiii told my parents the TRUTH. iiiiiii made up all my missed work. yea i got lucky thanks to Dr. Spano... but at least iiiiiiii got up off my ass and tried to do something about the hole i dug myself into. and also "no one in cypress likes me." ok... thats great. because ya'll know me and my "i dont give a F*CK" attitude. i dont live my life to please other people. i live for ME. if iiiii make mistakes iiiiiii learn from them and iiiiii grow as an individual. if people wanna judge me for that, thats their sin... not mine. also "everyone in cypress thinks i'm a whore." welll... lets see... why would they think that unless some people CONSTANTLY run their mouths and gossip and tell people things that arent true. see, the point of me is, i'm a LOT of talk... and i feed into peoples opinion of me just to get a rise out of them. if people wanna call me a whore, then i'm gonna call myself a whore just because. iiiiii know me better than ANYONE... as much as you people THINK u know... it aint nothin. annnd also... i "party too much." welllll i go to the club every thursday WITH megan... thats about it. party-hardy. the only REAL problem i had is skippin class but iiiii fixed it. i... hm... what else did i do that i didnt know about. OH i had sex with heath. didnt know that. josh is violent and everyone is scared for my safety. what else? hmm. i have sex with random guys. and yes... these were all things my mother heard one night while she was watchin tv. she was also directed to my blog. which scared the shit out of her. not because she found out i was partyin and stuff... i mean, its college. she knew that. but because i always say "i hate life" and stuff like that. ya see, my parents arent up on the today talk and dont realize "i hate life" translates to "i had a bad day." sooo they thought i was a second away from killin myself seriously. anyways... yea. also, some people feel the need to run their mouths to josh and justin and feed them a bunch of bullshit. so basically, i've decided that i wont talk to ANYONE but me and thats about it. i'm the only one i can trust. i mean, i didnt know best friends were supposed to spray you up (true or not). i guess that means i'll quit lyin for all ya'll when i get asked questions. and basically, i did just call bee and tell her the most shockin news of my life... but i think i can trust her. the only one i have to be worried about her tellin is preston and thats not that big of a deal. but anyways... i got shit to do... and now that i got all that off my chest i'm goin to go continue on with my life...

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