ok... well... ya'll know something extraordinary must have happened in my life to make me bring back my blog. let me begin...

wednesday:
bachelorette party pt. 1
Forum with my girls aka Megan, Libby, Breanne (the bride), Katherine (bridesmaid), and Emily (the maid of honor).

thursday:
wilkesboro with Megan
check in at the hotel and some errands with Ryan (the groom) 's mom
mj and i went out to eat japanese with Ryan's family

thursday night... bachelorette party part 2... and YES... we did get a sex toy lady to come and have a party for us... we made some punch to drink... ordered some pizza... we had penis balloons... pin the bow tie on the bachelor... cards... everything... it was great... well at midnight we let Ryan come it and he was with his best man, Nathan. well... i got really drunk... i licked whipped cream of megans boob... her face... nathans face... a penis balloon... i was drunk... and then i puked... yes... i puked... 8 times... then passed out on the bathroom floor. then i woke up at 5 and took a shower and puked again. yay. then megan came kncokin on the bathroom dorr and said "hey its 6:30... u wanna go get breakfast" lol... so we went down... i ate 1/2 a banana... and megan was like "why is ur lip blue?" so either i bit nathan or i hit the toilet seat to hard... idk...

friday: got ready... lunch with all the girls (libby megan bre kat and emily) and bre's daddy. couldnt eat... too sick still. then back to the hotel to get reday for rehersal dinner. all the groomsmen arrived. everyone oogled over the one with the massive guns. then we went to rehersal for like 5 mins and then dinner. and i sat next to who? the one with the massive guns. his name is jerad. yum. so we talked some.. but not too much. then after dinner we had yet another massive scandelous party in my room... but i didnt drink that time... and jerad was in there was we talked for a while then he had to go back to char to get his tux... so me and libby kicked everyone out of our room because they were startin to get destructive. so they moved upstairs and ended up tearin a mirror off the wall. and let me just say... sparks flew between some people and we are all very happy about it. anyways... back to ME...

saturday: bre woke me up at 9:30 because we had both broken nails so we went to get it fixed. and she was SOOOOOOO calm. i was like "HI ITS UR WEDDING DAY" and she was like "yea........" lol. so yea... we did that and then when we got back libby and i went to bojangles... then she started doin my hair... an everyone got ready but we were STILL late for pics. the girls were supposed to be there at 3 and boys at 345. but yer got there at 330. sooo... while we were waitin for fam pics to be done me and mj had an INTENSE heart to heart and it was GREAT! loved it... loved it. k so then... we mae sure we were ready and everything. the top part of my dress didnt fit so yes... i had to stuff my boobs. lol. i felt 12. anyways... then megan walked down the isle first.. and then me... and YES i slipped and almosty fell so i started walkin REALLY fast and everyone noticed. the flower girl didnt throw any flowers lol. we got down there... and when bre walked down the isle with her dad me and megan BOO HOOed the WHOLE time. WHOLE time. it was bad. so then after the service megan was like "u know jerad stared at u the WHOLE time, right?" and i was like... hmmm no. so then we started talkin while we were waitin to take more pics... and hes great. then we went to the recpetion and he sat at our end. and it was great. and then... it was great. and he was like "did i tell u, u look beautiful tonight" and i was like "uhm... beautiful is the most over used word ive ever heard" and he was like "ok how bout gorgeous" yay. oik then... like... intense eye contact the whole time... and one time... he sooooo grabbed my hand and i bout peed all over myself. ok... then we got back to the hotel room an everyone threw down in my room again. i was a little tipsy but i got cut off at the reception so i wouldnt get sick again. ok so... to get away from all the shitfaced people... me and kat and libby went and sat in the hallway... and then jerad came out there... and for whatever reason, the girls left... and it was just me and jerad.... and we talked in the hall for about 3 hours. just talked. then emily was like "hey wanna walk to taco bell with all of us" so we went... and then walked back... and instead of eatin in the hall (gross) we went and ate in his room. and by the time he was done, ryans bro logan came in (cause it was his room too) so we all watched Hollywood Homicide. and yea... i mean... he is like no other guy ive ever met. he was like "can i snuggle with u" and i was like... uhm DUH! and thats all we did. all night. he just held me all night. and he looked at me and said "you are stunningly breath taking" and i thought i was gonna die. and he said i was amazing. but my fav part was... ok... ya know how u scrunch ur lips up to ur nose... well he did that and was like "gimme a kiss" and i was laughin soooo hard but i did it too and kissed him back. and we were crackin up ad then he stopped and looked at me and said "i think i'm falling for u" buuut... that was kinda  bad thing because when we were talkin he told me he didnt want a gf for 2.5 years when he got out of the marines. cause i mean... hes goin back to iraq for a year in feb. so yea... the next mornin me and libby had to leave early and i didnt get to say goodbye or get contact info. so i was bummed. and then sunday night back in monroe i got a text that said "hey gorgeous" and i bout died. that meant he had to ask either ryan or bre for my number.  yea yea yea. i'm crazy about him. actually he just called andw e talked for 46 mins. gah. wow. me... crazy about a GOOD boy... in like 1 night. gah. head over heals is not even the right phrase. ok... but i gotta go now. ps: i get to see him on the 10th i think. so yea... im excited. ps: hes in my facebook pic if u wanna takie a look.

k well i'll have more to say about him later. <3

so i think this is gonna be another religious blog entry... so if you dont wanna read it... dont.

ok well first, i just wanna say... i HATE people that put bible quotes or religious things in their profiles or blogs or whatever because it just seems all for show to me. its like they are screamin out "look at me... i'm a christian." and i HATE that. and i'm sure that everyone reading this will probably think the same thing of me. no one knows the real me or what i stand for. no one wants to. everyone only knows what they see on the surface. i think MAYBE the only people that read this and actually see the true meaning will be like... justin, brandy, or megan... MAYBE.

so basically easter is coming up. traditional easter (for all you guys) is the 16th of April. well, mine is the 23rd. lemme explain. i am Greek Orthodox. and for all of you that only use half of your brain... my religion is NOT Greek... nor AM i greek... i am Orthodox. the Greek part is only in the title because thats the nationality that most influences the church community (saying there are a lot of greek people at my church). Orthodoxy is different than all other religions and it is most closely related to Catholosism. Basically, in school they teach you "back in the day there was one chuch and it was the catholic church" and blah blah. yea, well, they're wrong. there was ONE church and the leaders of the church decided to do EVERYTHING by meetin in an Ecumenical Council. these councils determined all processes and procedures fairly. the first council established 5 patriarchates (5 lead places or w/e). they were Rome (founded by St. Peter and St. Paul), Jerusalem (by St. Peter and St. James), Constantinople (by St. Andrew), Antioch (by St. Paul), and Alexandria (by St. Mark). they all had a man in charge (the partiarch) and they vowed to make decisions all as one. well, the Pope who was the patriarch of Rome began to consider himself "first among equals" (more powerful) and a WHOLE bunch of stuff happened so the churches broke apart -- Rome led by the pope vs. the 4 other partriarchates. those 4 others are what forms today's Orthodox Church. ok back to why my easter is different. back in the day, people followed the Roman calendar which was stupid and crazy and wrong because romans just added days whenever they wanted to (for political reasons and what not). Well Caesar got tired of it and had a guy come in and design a formal calendar. it, as expected, got named the Julian Calendar. but the guy who designed it was an IDIOT and was wrong and only made 10 months because he forgot to start with 0 and went straight to 1 (dont feel like explainin it all). basically thats why SEPTember (meanin 7) is the 9th month... OCTOber, NOVember, DECember... get it? k so they made a new calendar.. a RIGHT one called the Gregorian Calendar. the US and most other countries still use the Julian one... but Russia and the Orthodox church use the Gregorian calendar (aka the RIGHT one). check it out... google it... its factual. another point... last year... ya'lls easter was on march 27th. but passover wasnt until april 23rd. now how in the world can u have easter without passover. Christ had the last supper to celebrate PASSOVER. aka he died and rose again AFTER passover. its really COMMON SENSE if u think about it... but i guess we all know the government is STUPID. and PLEASE. if you are NOT orthodox and reading this, dont be offended. its FACTUAL... im not just bein opinionated. look it up... do research... i'm RIGHT. ok that one of the reasons that makes Orthodoxy different than you. (notice i said DIFFERENT... not better or something like that. i'm not tryin to put anyone's religion to shame... i'm just tellin u some facts about mine).

another reason we're different. we, unlike other religions, except catholics, make the sign on the cross. instead of the traditional catholic way, with an open hand to ur head, chest, left shoulder, then right one, our way is a little more symbolic. we start with 3 fingers together, the thumb the pointer one, and the middle finger to represent the father, the son, and the holy spirit and they all come together to represent the equality of the three (which is another difference we will talk about later). the 2 other finger, the ring one and the pinky (which represent the 2 natures of Jesus: man and God) are left down (as if the hand was in a fist) symbolizing the fact that Christ descended to Hell. and we go, head (to say "i love the lord will all my mind..."), chest ("...all my heart...") to RIGHT shoulder and then left ("...and with all my strength.") by the way, we dont actually say those words, its just what it means.

back to what i said about all 3 bein equal: the father, the son, and the holy spirit. other religions believe one to be above the other. the father greater than the son and what not. well we dont. we believe that they are a trinity of equality.

lent. since it IS lent i HAVE to talk about this one. if anything, you guys give up like... candy or sugar or all that crap for lent. well, we dont. the entire orthodox religion gives up meat and dairy. and not just on fridays like catholics. its the whole time. and to be real honest, for once i dont know WHY its MEAT that we give up, but i do know that every single practice in the orthodox church is dated back to the days of the disciples. And for me, if they did it, its a good enough reason for me to do it too. 

speakin of which, we also have apostolic succession. meaning, every single orthodox priest (which by the way have NEVER been convicted of child molestation) can trace his lineage back to the disciples. basically, every priest can look at the bishop who ordained him, to the archbishop who ordained him....... alllllll the way back to the disciples. sooo.... when the holy spirit was givin to the disciples they were to go out and share it and teach His word to everyone. well, when they ordained people, they passed it along. so each orthodox priest is proud to say they have a little bit of holy spirit helping them along the way.

lemme see if i can think of all 7 sacraments we have in the orthodox church. baptism chrismation, holy unction, marriage, communion, confession, and holy orders (meanin ordainin a priest). baptism... self explainatory. oh wait. lemme just say. if this doesnt apply to u dont be offended, but ive been in arguments with plenty of baptists that have said "if your not baptised u go to hell..." even newborn babies that dont make it, or 3 year olds that have devil parents that dont take themn to church. the orthodox church doesnt believe that. we believe that God is a compassionate God. yea, once u reach a certain age and have been EXPOSED to God and CHOSE not to listen, then you will beheld accountable. but not little babies and such. God's not that mean. chrismation... it happens at one of 2 times in ur life. either right after u are baptised... OR if u were baptised in another religion (ONLY if u were baptised in the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit since some churches baptise in the name of john the baptist). it basically seals the deal, i guess u could say. chrismation is the completion of baptism. you get annointed with oil and receive the holy spirit. holy unction... this is practiced during holy week (on holy wednesday) BUT can be adminstered at any time of the year (for the sick, dying, etc). holy unction is also where you get annointed with oil. basically, we do this because... as stated in James 5: 12-15... "Is any sick among you? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord, and the prayer and faith will save the sick man, and the Lord will raise him up; and if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven." so basically, i know I'VE committed sins, and if there is a WHOLE church comin together prayer for the forgiveness of everyones sins and for the sick, I want to be there and be a part of it. marriage... self-explainatory. i dont really want to talk about this too much since ive never been to an orthodox wedding (that i can remember). its different than other ones tho, i know that much. it has more substanance or symbolisms. i know you have ALL seen "my big fat greek wedding" and thats an orthodox wedding. communion... ok. our communion is pretty different from all yalls. first, to take communion in the orthodox church, u have to be baptized for chrismated orthodox. like... justin or megan couldnt ever take communion at my church, unless they converted. we take communion every sunday. basically, u have all heard "take, eat, this is my body..." but its not just, we do it because jesus told us to. in John 6:55-56, Christ says "for my flesh is food indeed, and my blood is drink indeed. He who eats my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me and I in him." so what thats saying is, communion is a union with God. AND another thing about orthodox communion that is different from all other religions, is we believe that its really the body and blood of Christ and not a symbolism. there is a part of our Sunday service (the consecration) where everyone is down on their knees and a prayer askin God to send down the Holy Spirit and change them from wine and bread to the Body and Blood of Christ. i dont know if you're catchin on yet, but EVERY single aspect of the orthodox church is done for a reason. got a question as to why we do something? ask. i'll get u an answer. confession. this is something protestants do NOT understand AT ALL. lemme say this, when i say confession, u all think of catholics hoppin into a dark box with a priest in there. yea... not the same as us. catholics believe SOLELY in confession with a priest and protestants believe SOLELY in confession of your sins in private prayers. well, we're in the middle. if i beat the crap out of my sister (if i had one) that can be a private little confession in my own room with my own prayer. GOING to confession with a priest is for a little bit more serious of sins. once or twice a year (around christmas and easter) you are kinda supposed to go confess them all, but in between is just for the things that weigh heavy on you or might be a little more serious. now still, some of you arent convinced it is necessary to tell other people (the priest) your sins. practicing confession humbles you, and shows that you confess your sins with sorrow and repentance, and then can receive guidance from your priest. notice i said guidance, not penance. catholics have to "say the our father" so many times or w/e the priest tells them to do before their sin is forgiven. we def dont do that. only god can forgive sins. the priest is only there to help out and read some prayers for us and help us. thats it. confession is still straight between YOU and GOD. and the last one... holy orders. thats when you ordain a priest. and as i said before, we have apostolic succession which makes this really special.

i wanna go back to talkin about our easter. its different in SOOO many ways. ok, different date. different lent practices. we actively participate in holy week, which you guys dont. i bet half of you cant even tell me when palm sunday is (yours OR mine). basically holy week starts on palm sunday (the sunday before easter) and if u've EVER read the bible you will know why its called palm sunday. then you have holy monday and tuesday (there are services for those). holy wednesday we have holy unction. holy thursday we have communion (same as the last supper). and friday is actually a BEAUTIFUL service and i would REALLY like AT LEAST ONE person to ask to go with me to it. and when i say beautiful, i dont mean cute and pretty. i dont know if theres one in the morning (cause im always in school) but there is a service at around 3 (the time christ died on good friday) and its a mourning service. its very very very very very very very very very very very emotional and yes, people do actually cry at this service.... me for sure. our services are sooooo symbolic and sooooo meaningful, its not just praise and worship and then preaching. we actually have SERVICES. and they make you think. on our good friday services you REALLY get taken back to the day christ died and you feel like u were there. ok then friday night we have the service for the lamentations. also VERY beautiful (very hard and exausting from a choir chicks perspective). its represents the lamentations (mourning) of Mary after Christ died. and there are like 923p8409238423098423098432094823 lamentations (or quotes/verses) we have to sing. and then (prolly the best part) we have a procession around the outside of the church. yes, the cops come and block off the street and everything. its a big deal. its beautiful also. then saturday. well, let me say. our easter service is saturday night at midnight... EXACTLY when christ resurrected. our service starts at 11 and it basically still kind of a mourning but also an anticipation. and at midnight, all the lights go out. the church is completely dark (representing the tomb). and then... the priest lights one candle. and lights the candles of the alter boys, who then come around and light the people's candles. and then the whole church is lighted only by candles. and the choir (aka me) sings: "come receive the light. the unwaning gift of light. come and glorify christ who did arise from the dead." and then... then... then... the best part (at least for me)... Christos Anesti (greek for Christ is Risen)... also can be found in "my big fat greek wedding" and yes, we do the thing with the red eggs and the "christos anesti"... "alithos anesti" (greek for truly he is risen). its just all really beautiful. i really want someone (who is generally interested) to go with me this year. remember, its the week AFTER your easter so you should be available. but the point is, our easter time is soooo much different than all of yalls. we have 40 days to pray and fast and meditate on whats about to happen (yes, some of u have a VERSION of this but its not the same). then we have holy week where we actually RE-LIVE the events of christs life (aka the passion... yes like the movie). then we have the actual resurrection service with SOOOO much meaning. its soooo diff from all yall because the most important thing to most (and YES i AM steryotyping so i dont mean YOU personally, but generally)... protestants is what easter dress they are wearing. its only ONE DAY of easter. for othodox christians, it is SOO much more. easter is the start of christianity. if christ had not died and rose again, we would all burn in hell bearin the burdon the the Original Sin (adam and eve) and all of our sins.

ANNND our services are soooo much different (as i said earlier). we have the SAME SERVICE every sunday. its called The Divine Liturgy. same thing. every sunday. its old, and not modern, and doesnt appeal to this day and age. our songs arent upbeat and pop-ish. they are byzantine. its the SAME service practiced in the caves back when christianity was bein persecuted. same thing christ would do. as pretty as i think the song "shout to the lord" is... i cant really see christ gettin up on sunday mornin singing it. theres got to be more than just singin some happy little songs and then gettin talked to for an hour or 2. thats what my church is all about. yea, we have a serman where the priest talks about the gospel reading. that changes from week to week. but our service isnt written by our priest. he doesnt decide what happens every sunday. its all tradition. some man on amountatin didnt invent orthodoxy 400 years ago. we go WAYYY back... to christ. nothin has changed. at all. the practices and everything... is all the same. and that makes it truly genuine.

also, i have a book here in front of me... its called "becoming orthodox." its a book about protestants... not just regular people, but preachers and like.. important protestant people.... over 2000 of them... did a HUGE study of orthodoxy, and after all their research, they converted. you can NOT, and yes, i am bein bold by saying this... you can NOT research orthodoxy, and know all the facts, and not believe that it is the TRUE religion. you cant. there is too much there. and i'll just end that there before i make people realllllllly mad.

but now i have to go because megan is coming to scoop me... but i'll be back later to write more stuff about my religion and what-not. i've just been writing this blog for forever now and i figured it's about time to post it. basically the reason im rightin about church and beliefs and practices and stuff is because its lent and idk... i guess church is more on my mind. but anyways, gotta go. byyyye!

ps: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont be offended by anything in here. i had to say what i had to say because its what i believe and im passionate about it. i am NOT in ANY way condemning ANYONE'S religion or putting mine above yours, i just wanted to give the facts about mine. and yes, pretty much everything i said in there was FACT... backed by my opinion that its true. thats it. k <3 u.

 funniest convo EVER...

FOOFOO8921 (12:30:47 AM): i talked to a bird the other day
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:30:51 AM): lmfao
FOOFOO8921 (12:31:26 AM): chris n frank met the other day
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:31:52 AM): wooooow
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:31:53 AM): weird?
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:32:14 AM): u made it to the info... ur special
FOOFOO8921 (12:32:16 AM): azar i Sharriff (12:30:00 AM): i dont really see why your with him. but thats word.  chris..
FOOFOO8921 (12:32:21 AM): yaya
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:32:25 AM): wow
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:32:26 AM): lol
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:32:40 AM): woooow
FOOFOO8921 (12:33:12 AM): azar i Sharriff (12:33:16 AM): you could do better i think. 
Mazar i Sharriff (12:33:28 AM): but hey im not dating him you are
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:33:18 AM): woooow
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:33:19 AM): geez
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:33:20 AM): lol
FOOFOO8921 (12:33:22 AM): no shit
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:33:28 AM): jealousy!!!!!!!!1
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:33:54 AM): j man got his braces off
FOOFOO8921 (12:34:05 AM): j man?
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:34:09 AM): jooosh
FOOFOO8921 (12:34:12 AM): awe
FOOFOO8921 (12:34:13 AM): cutie
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:34:19 AM): sorry i forgot i have 2 j's
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:34:19 AM): lol
FOOFOO8921 (12:34:36 AM): lia.... i really did talk to a bird
FOOFOO8921 (12:34:41 AM): it told me it loved me
FOOFOO8921 (12:34:46 AM): and it sang ot me
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:34:46 AM): hahahahahaha
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:34:49 AM): hahahaha
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:35:04 AM): hahahahahahahhaaha
tOoTiE bOoTiE xO (12:35:05 AM): lmao
FOOFOO8921 (12:35:11 AM): "la la la la " then it ran around the cage with its head cockeyed and said "pretty bird.. pretty bird"

sad part = shes not drunk. LMAO... ok i'm sorry i had to leave in all the crap about frank meetin chris and josh's braces but i had to, to show u how RANDOM megan is... lol... she went 5 mins and then RANDOMLY brought up weird bird experience again...  i'm sorry... maybe its just really late... but thats hilarious to me. actually, megan and i plan to sell our convos on ebay. we'll be SOOOO rich!! we can buy all the steak & shake in the world!! mmm and tb. yum! k well im goin to sleepy now... night!!

basically this blog entry should be titled:
THE MOST CONTROVERSIAL AND MOST LIKELY TO STIR UP SHIT ENTRY EVERRR!!!!!! ...here it goes:

first... to my little male friends. this is to 3 of you... u know who u are. heres the point-- I'M SINGLE! so do NOT think you have ANY right to ask me who i am with, where i have been, what i am doing, am i with any guys, or ANY similar questions. do not get mad if you find out i was hangin out, spendin time with, or talking to any other guy.  again, I AM SINGLE and am free to do what i want. if i wanted someone to nag at me all the time and interrogate me, i know where to find a boyfriend. i know how everyone feels and i know how available you all are... so u've done ur part. now PLEASE give me some space.

second... basically i'm DONE tryin to have "friends." i have associates. people i hang out with. people i have fun with. thats about it. i have NO ONE in this world that i can talk to and tell them things without them getting repeated. and PLEASE dont IM me after u read this and say "you can talk to me..." because i cant. been there, dont that... doesnt work. apparently its just more fun to stir up shit rather than be a friend and a confidant. i should also add in that i am not mad at anyone. there are people that are readng this and they KNOW i'm talking directly to them, but no worries... i am not angry nor will things be different with us.

third... i have some issues to address. as you know... several people have been in touch with my parents, which did absolutly NOTHING but make my mom worry even MORE than she needs to because i mean really, doesnt she have enough stress. so... we have some issues to discuss. first... "i have a drinkin problem." ok. i occasionally drink on the weekends (i'd say at least 50-75% of them) and most thursdays before goin to bar. thats all a part of the college experience. there has never been a time i drank WITHOUT megan jackson since she is the one who supplies all my alcohol. but then again, i forgot. megan has an "excuse." she "has a job" and i dont. so that makes it alllll ok. lemme tell u what... iiiiiii am still in school. iiiiiii told all my teachers the TRUTH about why i missed class. iiiiiii got help for my problems. iiiiiii told my parents the TRUTH. iiiiiii made up all my missed work. yea i got lucky thanks to Dr. Spano... but at least iiiiiiii got up off my ass and tried to do something about the hole i dug myself into. and also "no one in cypress likes me." ok... thats great. because ya'll know me and my "i dont give a F*CK" attitude. i dont live my life to please other people. i live for ME. if iiiii make mistakes iiiiiii learn from them and iiiiii grow as an individual. if people wanna judge me for that, thats their sin... not mine. also "everyone in cypress thinks i'm a whore." welll... lets see... why would they think that unless some people CONSTANTLY run their mouths and gossip and tell people things that arent true. see, the point of me is, i'm a LOT of talk... and i feed into peoples opinion of me just to get a rise out of them. if people wanna call me a whore, then i'm gonna call myself a whore just because. iiiiii know me better than ANYONE... as much as you people THINK u know... it aint nothin. annnd also... i "party too much." welllll i go to the club every thursday WITH megan... thats about it. party-hardy. the only REAL problem i had is skippin class but iiiii fixed it. i... hm... what else did i do that i didnt know about. OH i had sex with heath. didnt know that. josh is violent and everyone is scared for my safety. what else? hmm. i have sex with random guys. and yes... these were all things my mother heard one night while she was watchin tv. she was also directed to my blog. which scared the shit out of her. not because she found out i was partyin and stuff... i mean, its college. she knew that. but because i always say "i hate life" and stuff like that. ya see, my parents arent up on the today talk and dont realize "i hate life" translates to "i had a bad day." sooo they thought i was a second away from killin myself seriously. anyways... yea. also, some people feel the need to run their mouths to josh and justin and feed them a bunch of bullshit. so basically, i've decided that i wont talk to ANYONE but me and thats about it. i'm the only one i can trust. i mean, i didnt know best friends were supposed to spray you up (true or not). i guess that means i'll quit lyin for all ya'll when i get asked questions. and basically, i did just call bee and tell her the most shockin news of my life... but i think i can trust her. the only one i have to be worried about her tellin is preston and thats not that big of a deal. but anyways... i got shit to do... and now that i got all that off my chest i'm goin to go continue on with my life...

gOOOne*

hmmm... i havent written in fOrever. i guess i'll skip tO the impOrtant things.

1. me and mEgAn had the best day Of Our lives the Other day. k well whatever day it was REAL warm, me and megs rOcked the *sKiRtS, tAnKs, .&. fLiPs* and went tO cOncOrd mills TOPLESS (fYi: the jEEp was tOpless, nOt us..) annnnd OF COURSE we were jaMMin hardcOre, and dancin, and singin tO all Our bOOm bOOm jams, and we seen sOme yOung, cute, biker bOys zOOm past us On their bikes. and Of cOurse, as sOOn as they see girls in a jEEp they start shOwin Off, pOppin whEElies and stuff. welllll Of cOurse we tOOk pics and hOnked and waved and crap. well at a light, One Of them blew me a KiSS and basically my heart melted. k sO then we went tO cOncOrd mills and Our biker bOys were pullin in tOO. k well, they parked heeeeere.... and we parked theeeeere but they cOuld see us and we cOuld see them. sO... yea. we went in the mall lOOkin for 4 cuties wearin helmets cause we cOuldnt see their faces when they were ridin (their helmets were On) sO... we wanted tO see what they lOOked like. well, we were in there fOr like... an hOur maybe? and we NEVER saw them... sO we decided tO leave... and GUESS WHO we saw leavin the same time we were???? Oh that wOuld be Our biker bOys. sO they start wavin and hallerin, sO we stOp tO talk tO them. sO blah blah megans abOut tO DIE because she thinks bikes are like the HOTTEST thing, and like... the ring leader of the pack (lOl) -jOsh- ...the One that blew me a kiss... asked where we were frOm, and meg was like "virginia" and i was like "uniOn cOunty" and all 4 Of them were like "uniooooon coooooounty" and were makin fun Of me bein cOuntry. lOl. they nicknamed me "sweet thang" lOl. sO i gave them my 2-way number and we fOllOwed them tO sOme gas statiOn sO they cOuld meet their Other friend, and me and megan like DIED the whOle way... and i had my eye set On the REALLLLY cute One that was kinda quiet. YUM! k sO at the gas statiOn, megan REALLY wanted tO ride... but they Only had One extra helmet. sOoOo they drOve allllllll the way tO salsbury tO get anOther extra helmet and me and meg went tO eat at *sTeAk .&. sHaKe* while they were gOne. then we were gOnna meet at cOncOrd mills tO gO ride. but when they called, we were already back in charlOtte at the NeXtEL stOre because my damn charger quit chargin sO my phOne died and we had nO way tO get ahOld Of them. sO yea. sO then we were gOnna ride the next day but me and meg decided tO gO tO bar char instead. it's like traditiOn Or sOmething. and i rOcked the white capri's even thO jOsh begged me nOt tO. lOl. Oh yea. thursday mOrnin i had tO gO back tO the gynO. yea it sucked. but Oh well, i get my results in 2 weeks sO i'm really nervOus. sOme Of yOu knOw why. blah blah... anyways... then friday... i was a lOOser and had tO wake up early tO gO make up an anth. test at 10. sO i did that... it wasnt TOO hard. then at 10:45 i went tO the dOc. and talked tO him fOr a lifetime and it was REALLY great... i needed that. i gOt a lOt Of shit wOrked Out. k sO... then i gOt Out Of there at like... 12. then i went tO eat and then tO class at 1 and tOOk my film midtern. it wasnt tOO hard either. k sO then i went back tO my anth teacher tO turn in a quiz... and she gave me my test back. i gOt a 58%. buuuuuuuuuut.... shes like a hardass, Ok... and she was like "i'm REALLY impressed... . that was the class average and they were all in class the whole semester and fOr yOu tO have Only studied One night... i'm impressed." basically, i skipped ALL my classes fOr like 3 weeks straight, sO i went tO all my teachers, tOld them the truth, gOt sOme help, and nOw i'm back On the right track, sO thats why she said that. sO it was really a cOmpliment. annnnd i Only missed One On my quiz. sO nOw i'm just wOrried abOut my film midterm, but i think i did Ok. sO instead Of dOin like EVERYONE else, i didnt dip Out right after class. i actually stayed friday night. and then daddy came tO get me saturday night. and i chilled with the fam. then sunday me and daddy went tO church and i LOVED it. basically my chOir is my LIFE (annnnd i <3 Gerry).. and we gOt SOOOOOO many cOmpliments. and it was great. k sO then me and daddy went tO petsmart tO buy *KiTtY kiTTy* sOme flea spray just tO make sure she dOesnt have any, and a cute brush, and sOme tOys. sO then... hm... Oh. cHiCk*cHiCk came tO scOOp me and we went tO wash cOnnie. annnnnd... we sEEn 50cent UP IN THE CLUB and gOt him tO sign a g-unit hOOdie fOr us... and we're gOnna sell it On ebay!! lmaO!! *sHaKiN tHaT @$$ On tha flOOr, bUmPiN .&. gRiNdiN tHaT PoLe*  . k sO then when i gOt back, i went Outside with daddy and we wOrked Outside in the yard ALLLLL day and i LOVED it. nO bs. like, ive always lOved wOrkin Outside. my parents never had tO make me gO outside and help Out... i just always wanted tO. k sO after we raked the whOle flippin yard, we came  in and mOm made the MOST BANGIN dinner i've EVER had!!!!!!!!!! and it was SOOOOOOOOOO great tO eat REAL fOOd fOr the first time since i flippin left fOr schOOl. kids... appreciate it when ur mOmma cOOks gOOd fOOd... cause mOnrOe high schOOl's cafeteria fOOd lOOk gOurmet cOmpared tO crOssrOads...!! yuck!! k sO then... chicky came and picked me back up even thO i smelled like YARD sO we cOuld gO see JAMARIUS at subway!! annnnnnd i seen tRiCk'S cute ass when we were in there tOo. basically they are cute as pie and made me giggle. then i came back here and shOwered and tanned fOr the first time in a decade. my ass gOt BURNT fOr the first time EVER. i've NEVER gOt burnt in the tannin bed and i've had mine since i was like 8. sO thats a lOt Of times tO have never been burnt befOre. thenn... sOme cutie called and i was kinda shOcked. sOrry, cant tell u whO. k then i passed Out. theeen tOday... chicky called and scOOped me and we went tO... CVS and gOt her prescription...and a few things... and then we went tO see b.WeLsH at her hizzie!! then we went tO the tannin bed (fOr them, nOt me) and then weeeee... went tO see DOUG JONES at tennis practice. and basically i grabbed his butt the whOle time lOl. k sO theeen... they drOpped me Off at the baseball game and tim was like "will yOu PLEASE dO the bOOk fOr me because stacey isnt here." and sO OF COURSE i was like YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!! sO i missed my bOys. and then bee came!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAY!!! i lOve her. sO then... we Observed the... uhm... tOuchin? lOl. and it was fun. and theeeeeeen we FREAKED cause nOlan barfed in the cOrner... EW. k sO then... everyOne decided we were gOOd luck bringin the '05 flavOr back tO the dug Out. hmmmm AND i saw Princess (aka Mr. Flippin). hes cute as pie. annnnd it was greaaaaaaat. k sO then me, bee, p, and twOne went tO tacO bell and we invited tOddums and t-day but they had tO gO tO the tannin bed (cOugh - fags - cOugh). k sO..... after we sat there fOr 04892304923 years reminising abOut last year and last SB... me and bee went back tO her hOuse and helicia came and we talked abOut the gOOd Ol' days again... and it was sad. then daddy came and gOt me... and i gOt a phOne call frOm he-whO-must-nOt-be-named. yea, sOrry... cant tell yOu that One either. (YES its a diff bOy). and theeeeen i had 2 MORE cOnvOs yOu wOuldnt believe. yea... sO then i gOt in the tannin bed fOr the secOnd time this week, and nOw i'm here. and i'm abOut tO pass Out. g'nighhhhhhht!!!!! <3

so basically i quit writin in my blog for a while... but i didnt die. i just want u to know that. i'm doin laundry and cleanin now. i know.. its fun. im bored out of my mind. lkasdjflkasjdflkasj;dfkasjdf. actually, i'm not too bored because Kitty and Gloria are in here. actually.... maybe i'll come back to bloggin later.... the three of us chickys (haha gloria is LITERALLY a chicky) are gonna redecorate my room so we'll ttyl!!

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Ok sO basically i just wanted tO tell u abOut my life last night. k sO i was sittin here bein all bOred and pitiful and alOne at like 11 and i was abOut tO just gO tO bed because i seriOusly hated life. buuut then... justin and sparky came knOckin On the dOOr and were like "get dressed, we're gOin bOwling." and i was like "hmmm... great idea... except i have exactly zerO dOllars in the bank." and sparks was like "I'M PAYIN!!" wait... pause... i just wanted tO say that there is a whitesnake cOmmercial On tv and i just thOught Of bretOn. Ok back tO the stOry. i kept sayin NO NO NO but sparks insisted. sO... we drOve tO the bOwlin alley right by the schOOl. first Off... it was SUPER sketchy. secOnd... it was full. sO we left. and then SISSY called and i LOVED it because shes cute as pie and i miss her. k sO then the bOys were like "well, dO yOu knOw anOther bOwlin alley?" and the Only One i knew was carOlina lanes. sOo we started drivin. k well i called tOddums tO make sure i knew where tO turn... cause i'm sOo used tO cOmin frOm mOnrOe and we were cOmin frOm charlOtte sO it was gOnna be different. sO tOdd tOld me between the shell statiOn and the On the run gas statiOn On the right. and then i called jus tO make sure tOo. he said when yOu see the wendys and bOjangles On the left. sO... we made it there Ok. well... lemme just say i've lOst my bOwling tOuch. nOt that i ever really had it... but at least befOre i gOt lucky sOmetimes. lOl. k sO then the dj guy was askin fOr peOples birthdays... and sO sparks gOes up there and writes my flippin name On the list and was like "lia -- having a bad day" lOl. sO the guy annOunced me last... and was like... "where's lia?" and sparks made me stand up lOl. and he dj guy was like "shes havin a bad night... shes havin guy trOubles... sO all yOu guys Out there... there she is..." and blah blah. sO basically i was sOoOo SUPER embarrassed but i was REALLY happy because sparks is the lOve Of my life and he cares abOut me!! sO... i had a GREAT night. GREAAAAT night. Ok sO then... megan and frank gOt there. and me and megan OF COURSE we're whOres. lOl. nO but really.. i had a great night and i was really thankful that sparks came dOwn here and made me gO Out because... just because. i lOve the kid. fOr One night i was just able tO fOrget abOut all my prOblems and all my trOubles. but last night, it made me realize that all the things i had tO make myself fOrget abOut, are all the things that arent wOrth it. like.... i'm dOne with all that. i'm gOin back tO just bein hApPy LiA and i lOve it!! k but i gOtta go cause meet the barkers is On and thats really my fav shOw.

in clOsing... i just wanna say... i lOve sparks. k bye!

k... first... i'm done talkin about the situation. dead up. u aint shit to me.

second... me and heath are still friends. no matter what, hes still my boy.. and... i'm still his girl. he is a chillllllll ass mother fucker and i love the boy.

third... i can def. relate to the song "girl" by paul wall.

fourth... there is SOOOO somethin i wanna say right now but i cant cause i know my PARENTS are readin this... but its ok... i told breanne and thats all that matters. yeaaa... u just wait. lol. ur gonna be like... "damn... my 8 year old cousin" ...LMAO! yeaaaa thats whats really good... i cant wait.

ok... so basically i have been instructed to edit my blog because what i said "wasnt true." well yes, i must admit i was mad when i wrote that. so... here's what reaaally took place. i guess i can say all this now since heath and josh had their heart to heart. ok... well... for a while now, i've had feelings for heath. and he's had feelings back. well, since i couldnt tell anyone here because of joshua, i told my chicky back at home -- channing. i would send her entire convos between me and heath just so she could see how perfect he is. she knew how crazy i was about him. the thing with me and heath tho, was that both of us valued our friendship with joshua WAY to much to ever do anything together. like... all we did was talk. k so then... saturday i wanted my chicky to come see me because i hadnt seen her since our whole argument thing and i wanted her to meet my boys. but first, lets take a sec to remind everyone WHY me and channing were fighting. she liked justin and me and justin kinda started gettin back together with him. the whole ENTIRE time we were fightin, i tried to explain to her that it wasnt like i just stole a random guy that meant nothinto me away from her. justin was my past. my present. and my future. i done pissed on him to mark my territory a LONG time ago. ok so anyways, after josh found out about everything, heath told me that he had to quit talkin to me, because its wrong to sneak behind the back of one of your best friends. k so... i mean... basically i was heartbroken and cryin my eyes out 24-7. i talked to channing out that. and bein the cute little girl she is, she sent me a little thingy... its not on my pc anymore but i would LOVE to show u all what it said. it was like "i'll be here when ur sad... " blah blah blah and all that bs. welll... i so conveniently found out last night that the guy i am crushin on SOOO hard, cryin 39048209834 tears over, cryin to my channing about.... has been secretly talkin to channing like allll the time, and DROVE to fuckin monroe to see her yesterday. so yes... i am a little mad. lets name the reasons why...

1. i didnt find out from either of them
2. at least when i took justin from her i KNEW him before and we had a deep connection and it wasnt some random guy i just meant that really deep down there is nothin there
3, channing never mentioned anything to me...
4. heath was STILL talkin to me like he had feelings for me throughout this whole thing
5. heath cant mess with me because its wrong to mess with someone his best friend is crazy about... but its ok for channing to mess with him even tho i'm one of her best friends and is crazy over heath???
6. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii flippin introduced them!!!!!
7. channing is not carin at all how bad she hurt me... all shes thinkin about is hangin out with him...

anyways... i'm done namin shit. i'm angry. not even so much angry. i am sooo hurt. so hurt. i seriously think it would be best if i just limited my amount of friends to 2. meg and bre. dead up. i dont need to even associate with anyone else. i have people i hang out with... but as far as people i trust and can tlak to... bre and meg. actually, i dont even know dude. everytime ive confided in someone in the past, theyve backstabbed me or done somethin to f it all up. so i'm sure its only a matter of time before bre and meg do the same. ok what am i talkin about?? we got that bangin friendship and i trust them with everything. i think i would seriously die without them. basically i miss them a lot right now as a matter of fact because YET AGAIN i am ballin my eyes out. damn it... neither of u are soooo not worth it AT ALL. oh just to let u all know his side of the story... this is what heath has to say...

dhg150 2 (12:49:23 PM): for real, me and channing arent as big as its gtetin made out to be

he saaaaays he not tryin to get with her and they are just friends. i just want u to know his side of the argument before you judge him. also, channing says she does like him. and she knows she was sneakin around and bein a GREAT friend to me.

but ya know what? its all ok... because ive got my REAL best friends. breanne has been in here with me for like ever makin sure i'm happy and megan flippin bought me a jimmie johnson t-shirt last night which made my damn year!!! i told justin the only other thing in my life that would make me more happy is if me and him had blonde twins. so yea... i'm pretty happy.

hmmm now im listenin to eminem and thinkin about how much i hate life. and you. and yes, just fyi... i AM more upset at chan than heath.. because really, he aint shit to me. hes just another guy that made me cry. but channings one of my best. we've been in this spot before. at least i had a good reason. at least i LOVED justin and it wasnt just a fling. i cant wait until it doesnt work and he makes u cry. u know its only a matter of time.

as i leave i just wanna leave u with one thought... my ring tone.... hmmm... bEtChA cAnT dO iT LiKe Me... NO!